skibigsky's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Another blah update Well, Mr. V.’s ankle is not getting better; he’s still got serious pain when he hits even minor holes in the snow, and skiing hard snow kills him. So, a good part of his race season is shot. I could, of course, go train and race (at least local races) without him. And maybe I’ll train a bit. Maybe I’ll race some local races. But maybe not. I’m really not heart-broken. I’ve had a number of people ask me if it is the broken arm from last year. I don’t think so. Physically, certainly not. The arm is almost as good as new. Mentally? Not from a fear point of view, but maybe from a “is this worth it” point of view. Doubtful that I’ll get hurt in slalom or Super G, and fairly unlikely in GS. But I don’t think I’ve quite convinced myself that it is worth it. Maybe a season, or part of a season off will re-inspire me. I talked briefly today with my Bosnian coach friend. He was teaching, but always seems to make time to ignore his students and greet us. Mr. V. was occupied, so he and I talked. I mentioned that I was a little burned out, and in his usual Bosnian way, raised his hands, and just said, “Break is good. Even Vorld Cup need break.” Sounds good to me. I’ll take a break, and see how it goes. And not stress about it. I keep looking at the training hill, thinking I SHOULD be there, but I don’t find myself missing it. I think as soon as I start missing it, and wanting to get up there, I’ll be ready to start training. But for now? I’ve got to just go with it. Going out when I don’t want to be there can’t be good. So I’ll wait. I’ve been taking a mental break from ‘work’ (all the stuff I do for Mr. V.; again.. . if I ever need a job I think I could be qualify as a personal assistant…) all during the holidays, so it’s almost like I’ve actually got a job – I had to step up and get stuff done today. Pluth. I don’t think I could ever actually hold a ‘real’ job again (well.. I COULD…. I just hope I don’t have to…) unless it allows for skiing, a nap each afternoon, and plenty of time for running errands… (Yeah, bitch moan, bitch moan…) Heh. Off to work on my sorely neglected nails. I haven’t done anything with them in months, and I think I’m ready for a little girly time. *grin. BTW, thanks for the advice on the anniversary present. I like the idea of a leather riding crop, but I don't think Mr. V. would properly appreciate it! *grin. 8:10 p.m. - 02 January 2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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